Wow – to come out of that experience and try to put it into words….God help me, please.
Be still, and know that I am God. Be still, and know that I am God. Be still and know that I am God. Repeated, repeated, repeated. Over and over and over. Again and again and again.
There was a dot. It was orange. It was just there. I perceived it, I thought it, I knew it. It was a tiny dot, superimposed on a sepia-tinted landscape that included a run-down farm house, with a prairie and a couple of trees in the background. I had never seen it before. The dot was placed in such a way that it was on the house, yet it wasn’t on the house. The scene was two-dimensional – a representation of 3 dimensions, like a painting, but the dot wasn’t. The dot was non-dimensional. Somehow, I just knew that. I began to focus on the dot, but focus isn’t the right word, because the dot wasn’t really there to focus on, it just was. It wasn’t dimensional. I could be in the dot or outside the dot. The dot was still there. The dot was God, but God wasn’t in the dot. The dot was everything, and it was nothing – it was just a dot. The dot itself had no meaning, or value, or significance, except as a point of focus. When I “focused” on the dot, I gradually “knew” the universe. I knew everything in it. Not in detail – but some of my experiences, or memories, were in there in detail. But I knew that “EVERYTHING” was in the dot, yet the dot was nothing. It was just a point of focus.
The universe is a pin-prick in the vast sea of non-existence.
This dot represented the universe, but so much more. Whereas I think of the universe – “existence” – in 3 dimensions, this universe was non-dimensional. It just was. It just is. It has infinite depth, and width and height, and time, and light, and matter, and energy, and movement and stillness, and love, and experience, and perception, and comprehension and knowledge, and understanding, and peace, and fear (yes – I guess fear exists as a force or a “thing”). There is duality if we choose to perceive duality, but it is all one. It IS a oneness. This oneness is God. The vastness is God, as is the tiniest detail.
God has a voice. The universe speaks to itself – I say “itself” because you and I are part of this universe, and God’s voice speaks to us. It makes itself known unto us. We are one with it, even if we insist on seeing ourselves as separate from it – as unique, which we are, but we are unique only within the context of our oneness.
This is so confusing.
Anyway – God has a voice. Christ has a voice. Christ’s voice is “closer”, more accessible to us, and it speaks to us. It guides, it comforts, it teaches, it encourages…it loves. Our knowledge of Christ is a manifestation of His love, and it is also a manifestation of God’s love – the love that IS the universe.
Now, I’ve gone from a pin-prick in the vastness of the sea of nonexistence, to the vastness of that pin-prick, to the voice of Christ as an individual consciousness, with the ability to choose, within that vastness (skipped right over the voice of God) to the single choice of that Christ to manifest Himself to us in love, which single choice is manifested to us over and over and over, again and again and again, constantly, repeatedly, as much as WE choose to listen. Christ made ONE timeless choice, which choice is manifest to us in many tiny, (by comparison) choices or communications, interactions. Christ IS that choice. And that choice just is. That choice – to be our advocate, our teacher, our “savior” in this, our tiny, vast, limitless, dimensionless, corner of that vast universal pin prick in the sea of nonexistence – is the atonement. That choice is Christ. That choice is also God. And God just is. And Christ is. And you are. And I am. And we are all one in the vastness of this pin-prick in the vast sea of nonexistence. (Do you recognize the chiasmic structure I that paragraph? It wasn’t really deliberate, but I went with it once I recognized it)
And the overall, defining characteristic of this non-dimensional, limited “pin-prick” in the vast sea of nonexistence? Love. Peace, harmony, joy, union, communion, oneness, wholeness, order…eternal life. Yes, I saw, or let’s say “comprehended” – somewhat, at least – eternal life. Maybe this is what I saw because that’s what I wanted to see. Figure that one out, LOL! The opposites of these characteristics – the things that give us our perception of a dualistic nature in the universe – fear, hatred, war, conflict, sadness, separation, conflict, individuality, emptiness, chaos – these are all the result of that very dualistic perception. I could have chosen to see that orange dot as a paint spot oddly placed on the two-dimensional representation of a 3 dimensional landscape – totally out of place, a scar of color on an otherwise perfect, sepia-toned painting, but instead, I perceived that it was a portal into a vision of God. And when I followed that portal to where it led, the dot never went away, but my comprehension of what it represented grew and grew. Beyond time, beyond dimension, beyond space, beyond form. Oh, time, and space, and form are all part of it, but they do not represent limits or boundaries.
By the way – this duality that we perceive – this is the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, while the oneness, the wholeness, is the fruit of the tree of life. The tree of knowledge of good and evil is based on perception. It represents duality. The tree of life is truth. The truth is love. Our perception includes fear. Truth does not. Our perception includes life and death. The truth is only eternal life. The scriptures make this all very clear (Clear? Yeah – right! Really – though – it’s all there…once you begin to see it).
Now, I’ve heard descriptions of enlightenment experiences where the individual (that sounds so odd now) was “taken to a high mountain” or lifted into life-altering experience with physical sensations, etc. I guess I could have described it this way – but that’s not what I “experienced”. My experience was just me. Calm. Peaceful. No fireworks or anything. I’m not a fireworks kind of guy – never have been. Was this an “enlightenment” experience. I don’t know. Labels seem so inadequate for describing these things – but then, words are nothing more than labels, even metaphors, for the real thing.
Peace. Love. Harmony. Eternal life. ‘Be still, and know that I am God. Be still, and know that I am God. Be…still.
And know that I am God.”
Great love to you, my friends.